today, i just got back from my roadtrip to port macquarie, Sydney, Canberra and Coffs Harbour . I left on theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee 13th, my epic 4 months .
Day 1 ; i had to wake up at 7ish to get reayd and eat breakfast to leave. we left around 9 and was on the road . it was about 4 hours before we stopped off to eat lunch somewhere o.o blah blah blahh . we watched movies in the car when i was told to turn on the laptop cause they were getting annoyyed LOL . so i was sitting there daydreaming about my boyfrriend ex boyfriend . we got to the hotel (port macquarie) at aroundddddddd 4 pm and my dad fell asleep . i was playing on the net and talking to numerous people cause i missed the net so dearly [: . i got off around 8;30 when i got a text 15-30 minutes later from karl saying he didn’t wanna date anymore . pretty shocked cause i didn’t expect it, i was trying to keep it in cause i didn’t wanna ruin everyone elses roadtrip. Everyone went to sleep around 11 and i began cryingggggggggggg . then fell asleep crying at 2 a.m. but my dad woke up at 3 cause he couldn’t sleep and turned on the t.v … then i woke up cause it was loud but my dad put it on mute . about 20 minutes later ; Arielle texting me randomly telling her how she couldn’t sleep becuase she felt </3 cause her ex boyfriend found another within 2-3 weeks . pretty coincidental innit . i told her that i was also </3 . crying, we told eachother try to get some rest at 4;50 – 5 am and that we’d talk soon . lol i slept til 6 then i woke up earlier then the rest to freshen up so that no one would notice that i’ve been crying.
Day 2 ; we went to a waterfall which was pretty epic. i saw a house next to a forest that reminded me of edward cullen lol . i didn’t feel like walking the 641 steps to the bottom of the water fall so i waited in the car thinking . after we went to the beach and to a lookout . i sat in the car the whole time . i didn’t really participate in anything that day. the day wasn’t any better than the last night cause it was the day i had to tell my close friends about what happened . i kinda just left it at telling my bestfriends than all my friends x) . they can just find out . but yeah i sent the text to about 7 people because i had no internet access . one after the other , i got messages back and a few calls which i rejected cause i would completely lose it if i talked about it . i was tearing for the whole day until my mum asked me what she could do to make me feel better . i hadn’t noticed that she’d known about me being down all day . i had to lie about the reason but i was able to cry freely on my mums shoulder . to cheear me up, my mum gave me her wedding and engagement ring to wear . we got to sydney at about 8pm where there was a party so i was kinda embarrrassed that everyone had noticed i’d been crying lol .
Day 3 ; i felt better but still felt the need to cry . lol ; we went to the blue mountains . i actually did soem stuff LOL . but i was still thinking about it and tearing . kinda weird . we left the blue mountains at around 10 and headed towards canberra. sitting and thinking the whole way, i put on some pretty depressing music lol . e.g. Haru Haru – big bang (if you’ve seen the vid) and some stupid love songs that i had once showed him ==’ . there was a dust/ sand storm around canberra and sydney which was annoying lollll . we got there around 5 pm and stayed at someones house where i met - (Cause i don’t remember meeting them before LOL… but apparently i have :L ) – Anthony and Catherine . although its effin’ freezing down there, Catherine took us out that night to get ice cream
Day 4 ; erhh i don’t remember day 4 o.o OH except we were back in sydney where i was putting toothpaste on my tooth brush in the bedroom when cameron lay down and put his feet in my direction . i squirted toothpaste onto his foot to which he responded by rubbing it in as mistaking it for body lotion ! LOLOLOL .
Day 5 ; leaving to coffs harbour . blah blah blah can’t remember lol . it was a boring trip anywya lol . i just sat and thought and watched gay movies in the car . I was on msn at the hotel and was explaining to everyone about what had happened to “131208″ to which i responded with ‘ </3 ‘
Day 6 ; on the way back to brisbane . boring and boring and super boring . Did i mention boring ?! . we got back at round 3 and went shopping LOL ! .
my first words when we got back : Lets go shopping yeah ?
Camerons first words when we got back : I feel like ice cream . lets go to maccas
Mummys first words when we got bacl : lets go shopping 
daddys first words when we got back : Home sweet home o.o
never regret something that once made you smile</3
he ruined it for you </3 ..
i love you chanteeeeeeeeeeel